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Look Before You Leap…

Blog Post – Look Before You Leap

When it comes to matters of the heart there are an abundant of quotes…

I hold it true, whate’er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
‘Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.

-From Alfred Lord Tennyson’s poem In Memoriam:27, 1850

‘Tis absence, however, that makes the heart grow fonder.

-The contemporary version appears in The Pocket Magazine of Classic and Polite Literature, 1832, in a piece by a Miss Stickland

“If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were.”

-Khalil Gibran

These are just a few used when dealing with the heart and love. I say all that to say this…

Love can make people do unusual and unexpected things. It can make you reject all that you’ve ever known and change the person you’ve always been. It can be an unhealthy obsession or the best thing that ever happens in your life. I believe everyone has a soul-mate. I believe the mythology of the Greeks about soul-mates to be the closest explanation of how I also feel about the word.

It is said that humans originally consisted of four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

-Plato on soul mates

Again I said all that to say this…I believe in Soul-Mates…I believe in giving my all in a relationship and not holding back because until I prove otherwise the person that I’m vibing with could be the missing half of my soul. Here is my problem, I believe in love so much that I put my whole heart into my relationships. Even when those relationships don’t work out, when the next one comes along I’m just as open, caring, and giving. I don’t look before I leap. Why do I do this? I could tell you a number of reasons like blaming horoscopes (I’m a Scorpio), loneliness, or a number of other reasons. What I do know is that I give 110% in my relationships and I’ve tried everything imaginable to make sure they work. I hear stories of couples being together from their first date even after sleeping together, high school sweethearts, blind dates, you name it I’ve probably heard the love story. Am I bitter? Maybe, no one wants to be alone and if they say they do I think they aren’t being honest with themselves. Now am I saying settle for the first thing that comes along and shows you attention? No. You have standards, don’t lower them. There is someone (soulmate) who will not only meet them but surpass them.

I was married for 3 months because I leaped before I looked. Even when I knew in my heart that it wasn’t meant to be, I let what I believed should be happening to cloud my good judgment. My common sense. I listen to sappy love songs and I find myself waking up in the middle of the night with tears stained on my pillow. I give myself pep talks about finding love when I least expect it and I hate it. I absolutely hate it. When I do meet someone and I think we click, everything is going well, and then BAM! things change. I start to feel like I’m not good enough. The texts go from every morning, night, and hour in between, to I feel like I’m a stalker vying for the attention that I should have. It’s like a complete 180 and it in turn only makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong. I start to question not only myself but my sanity. What am I doing wrong? Like I said I hear all the love at first site and we had sex on the first date and now we’ve been together 5, 10, 15, 20+ years and the only thing I can think in response is, Mm…anytime I’ve had sex on the first day I didn’t get a phone call the next day. Doesn’t matter if we had been texting weeks prior to said first date. Again I ask, what am I doing wrong?

Recently I’ve met a super cool guy. We talked for weekends through the phone before we even had our first day. Then we had a second dinner date, and spend the 4th together for our third and now I’m beginning to let past heartbreak confuse and bewilder me. If I don’t get a text back right away I’m nervous. I start to second guess myself…am I texting too much, is this the same amount of texts I was sending before, is he bored of me already? Yes I’m a head case and neurotic. I can’t help it…I have anxiety and it seems to skyrocket when beginning a new relationship (is it even a relationship, does 3 dates a relationship make). So are there really soul-mates and if so where the hell is mine?

It’s The Little Things

Well, well, well…I finally freaking did it. What’s it, you ask? It is finish my BA for Psychology after 10 years…that’s what IT is!! To say I’m excited would be an understatement. I am just so freaking stoked. Not only will I now have BA but I also have an AA in Logistics from my 8 years being the the United States Air Force. I am in a very different place from where I was 10, 8, or even 1 year ago. I have 3 works published with hopefully 5 more added to that number before this year is out. I’ve met some wonderful and not so wonderful people on this author journey that I have embarked on. I have my first signing coming up with Boston Comic Con, I’ve made an official author website, I’m getting the hang of the whole social media thing (well some days at least), and most importantly I’m having fun. I will also be attending Authors In The City (AITC) next year in March…the tickets are already on sale. Check out the pinned post for details on that. Also if you are interested in being apart of my street team just click here.

For all you Facebook fans I have an amazing giveaway going on here, (just look out for the pinned post) and I’m planning a huge multi author 4th of July giveaway here. So make sure you check back to enter.

For anyone interested I’m accepting participants in my Double Blog Tour/Cover Reveal here, there are review opportunities for the first two books in my Dark Indiscretions Series, as well as chances to interview me.

I’m currently working on I guess what you would call a spin off or companion novellas to my Dark Indiscretions Series which will be called The Dark Indiscretions Chronicles, detailing more intimately certain characters that aren’t detailed as much as I would have wanted in the Dark Indiscretions Series. I also have 6 books planned in a Sci-Fi, Steampunk, Fantasy type world that I want to start working on at the beginning of the year. I’m really excited about it and will even be possibly using a friend as the model on the covers.

I have so many book ideas that it’s become crazy to keep them all separate. I’ve been using Scrivener, which I love! The layout and organization is amazing. It’s especially helpful since I want to release an Insider’s Guide once the Dark Indiscretions Series is complete. Well that’s enough of my ramblings for today! Happy Sunday and for all the True Blood fans, I hope tonight’s episode is better than the last!

It’s The Little Things

Well, well, well…I finally freaking did it. What’s it, you ask? It is finish my BA for Psychology after 10 years…that’s what IT is!! To say I’m excited would be an understatement. I am just so freaking stoked. Not only will I now have BA but I also have an AA in Logistics from my 8 years being the the United States Air Force. I am in a very different place from where I was 10, 8, or even 1 year ago. I have 3 works published with hopefully 5 more added to that number before this year is out. I’ve met some wonderful and not so wonderful people on this author journey that I have embarked on. I have my first signing coming up with Boston Comic Con, I’ve made an official author website, I’m getting the hang of the whole social media thing (well some days at least), and most importantly I’m having fun. I will also be attending Authors In The City (AITC) next year in March…the tickets are already on sale. Check out the pinned post for details on that. Also if you are interested in being apart of my street team just click here.

For all you Facebook fans I have an amazing giveaway going on here, (just look out for the pinned post) and I’m planning a huge multi author 4th of July giveaway here. So make sure you check back to enter.

For anyone interested I’m accepting participants in my Double Blog Tour/Cover Reveal here, there are review opportunities for the first two books in my Dark Indiscretions Series, as well as chances to interview me.

I’m currently working on I guess what you would call a spin off or companion novellas to my Dark Indiscretions Series which will be called The Dark Indiscretions Chronicles, detailing more intimately certain characters that aren’t detailed as much as I would have wanted in the Dark Indiscretions Series. I also have 6 books planned in a Sci-Fi, Steampunk, Fantasy type world that I want to start working on at the beginning of the year. I’m really excited about it and will even be possibly using a friend as the model on the covers.

I have so many book ideas that it’s become crazy to keep them all separate. I’ve been using Scrivener, which I love! The layout and organization is amazing. It’s especially helpful since I want to release an Insider’s Guide once the Dark Indiscretions Series is complete. Well that’s enough of my ramblings for today! Happy Sunday and for all the True Blood fans, I hope tonight’s episode is better than the last!

Welcome To The Real World

Hello. It’s been awhile. To say I started my journey full of excitement and wonder would be correct but I’m slowing losing the excitement and starting to wonder what the hell was I thinking.

The job search is hard as hell and most places that do want to hire are commission jobs. Now I wouldn’t be adverse to taking one of these positions but I’m trying to buy a condo and it just won’t happen with a commission only job at the moment.

So I’m at a loss of what to do really. Hope my books mysteriously sell a million copies overnight? One can only dream until then I’m going to try not to put myself in a mental hospital worrying about it. I can always sleep in my car right??

Signed Paperbacks Announcement

Ok…now you can buy signed paperbacks from me for $14 (hope that’s not too much…it includes everything even shipping) from my website it’s on the Home screen at the bottom 🙂 Let’s see how this goes ❤ Right now it’s set up for Dark Indiscretions and Dark Indiscretions: Monster Unleashed (which should be in stock towards the end of the month since it’s only releasing tomorrow in Ebook) but you can put your orders in as late or early as you want so spread the word bird!!!

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Guest Post – Ashley Phillips

Today we have our very first guest post from my dear friend, PA, and Beta reader, Ashley Phillips! Please say hi and make her feel welcomed 🙂 She is in the process of writing her first book and I am in LOVE so far… I can’t wait until the day she publishes it and is able to share it with all of you…Without further ado here is her piece…..

 

I find it completely difficult being ADD and trying to write a book. I want to finish my book off in the same setting and plot. Not start off with Cinderella and end up writing about the big bad wolf who saved Rapunzel from Copper because Snow White  didn’t get her legs and stayed a mermaid. See my problem? I have to go back and reread to make sure I do not do that! haha 😉 I also find just writing a challenge. I have the scene perfectly set but I can’t seem to make my fingers move across the keys because I am too busy thinking of something else. My mind is a whirl pool stuck in a tornado being flushed down a toilet. Does that make sense? I hope so! I love thinking of worlds I could create and I hope one day I can publish a book with at least one commenter saying I did a good job. I would love to hear criticism and feed back. I am terrified of it but I want it you know? I think it will make me a better writer. I could not do any of this without a great person named Shakuita Johnson. Juita is an amazing person who inspired me to write and actually do it. Otherwise, it would be years down the road until I put a book out there. I am not doing it all myself though, My step mom is co-writing with me and  my mom and cousins are my betas. I love my family for all their help.

I Can See The Light…

So this week is finals week for the three class I was taken. I’m happy for two reasons…one it’s finals week!!! Three class online, while working full time and trying to write part time sucks ASS!!! Yes I said it. Secondly, I’m happy because I only have three classes left until I will hold a BA in Psychology. That’s right twitches…I’ll be a card holding degree carrier! The day after my three classes I’m currently taking end I start two more classes. Yay!!! Fun times 🙂 I’m also free…well only for the summer and then grad school starts. The grind never ends but I’m excited. Some many new things going on this year that I can’t complain. My second book will be published in April, I’m getting out of the military, moving to Boston, and buying my first piece of real estate. All in all I think 2014 is looking pretty damn good!

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The ‘R’ Word

I’ve been wanting to talk about this for a while now but never had the time. Now that I do let’s talk about why I wanted to write paranormal fantasy fiction. I don’t like doing the ‘R’ word. What’s the ‘R’ word you ask? Research. I hate it with everything in me. I do enough research for term papers so with my leisurely writing I didn’t want to have to make sure I was politically correct about what was going on in my story. So I made up a lot of the words and spells and the idea was formed and without a bit of research. Even for the city because I never really talk about the city at all. It’s just for gee whiz information. I let my audience decided what the city life is about based on their own knowledge. Nothing really takes place at a certain shop or club anyway. So I was all ‘middle finger to the world’ about research. The characters aren’t real or human so I had carte blanche with their abilities, ages, and so on.

Now I said all that to say this…I was wrong! Yep, I’m admitting it. I’m soooo wrong. I thought sticking to a genre where the characters were species that didn’t exist in the world wouldn’t require any former knowledge. Then I had this book idea and realized I would have to at least know some basic mythologies and characteristics just for my general knowing. Yes I will still be taking huge liberties with my own mythology of the characters but some of the stuff would have really seemed like gibberish without at least some plausibility. Now I know were-creatures, elves, and the like don’t really exist but there have been enough information on them that people have a general idea of what they should or shouldn’t be capable of. Like I said I will definitely be putting my own spin on these species so it’s not the same old song and dance but at least now I’m more aware of general characteristics.

I still strongly hate research of any kind when writing for fun. It feels too much like work to me but in order to bring the best story I can think of to my readers, I’ll bite the bullet and try to pretend that I somewhat know what I’m talking about 🙂

A Bit Of An Update!

Holy crap! I feel like I haven’t really blogged in a while. Yes, I’ve posted some cover reveals and such but I haven’t really said much that’s from me. I’ve been busy. Geez! If it wasn’t for the schedule feature I wouldn’t have even had time to post the little I’ve been posting. I’m currently editing Dark Indiscretions: Monster Unleashed ( I hate editing) and it’s coming together 🙂 I hope it’s a great follow up to the first which has been getting some great reviews! I’m participating in all kinds of goodness over on Facebook to get notice and but my book out there. The Book Blast starts Monday and I’m like a kid on Christmas waiting for this thing to start. Don’t miss the awesome giveaway I have with it. It’s on the upcoming book blast page. 40 gifts will be given so you could be on of those 40! Event your friends and check out the blogs that will be hosting my blast. There are 10 and they are really cool! I also started a YA that I’m currently calling Rumspringa. I’ll post a bit about it soon. In the meantime if you use Wattpad the first 3 chapters are up there. I need to post the 4th soon. Some much stuff and so little time 🙂 My Facebook Dark Indiscretions book page reached 1000 likes last night! I’m stoked about that and my author page Shakuita Johnson is almost at 500 🙂 Such great things happening this year. If you haven’t checked out my book yet the ebook is on Amazon and you can get the print versions from Amazon, BN, and createspace. Until next time guys. I have a paper to write for class that’s due Sunday at midnight 😦 Wish me luck!

Was Writing All Day Yesterday

Book Flats I had made! Love these things :)
Book Flats I had made! Love these things 🙂

 

A few days ago I made it to the 10K mark on my second novel in my Dark Indiscretions Series. So for the weekend I decided I was going to hit 20K. Well I’m definitely going to hit my mark. I pushed out 2K Friday night while simultaneously hanging out with friends and yesterday managed around 6K. Crazy right?! So today as I sit at a little over 18K I’m ecstatic that I will be blowing that 20K goal out of the water. I have an overall goal of 50K and with the way the story has been following lately I can be done in the next month with a first draft. The second time around the words are coming much faster and the story developing nicely. I have the cover done this time way before so I can do one of those fancy Cover Reveals when I’m close to publishing. This one will also be self published. I thought taking 3 classes would slow down my writing but I’m finding a nice balance. I still find time to read for pleasure, review, and help other indie authors promote their work with cover reveals, and anything else on my blog. This year as started over amazingly and I have nowhere to go but up from here! I’m also doing my first Author Takeover at Book Cracker Caroline on Facebook Jan. 16, 8-10 pm EST. If you have a moment be sure to check it out. Giving away some prizes, tidbits, and such. Should be loads of fun! My second one will be Feb. 2, the day before my Book Blast and it will take place on the page Panty Dropping Book Blog. I’m nervous and bouncy.

So how’s your new year so far? Everything you hoped and more?