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LOST: Motivation

As I work on the rewrite of my first book ever published, in the mist of all that has been thrown my way this summer I’ve lost my motivation. The drive or spark is gone. Not sure if it will even come back. I can’t focus enough to see if the voices are gone, as personal issues have either drowned them out or they’ve gone silent. Either way it sucks. Hell it’s all I can do to muster up the brain and willpower to write this blog post. I’ve taken breaks, I tried to read for clarity, and I’ve even watched a movie or five. Still nada. Zip. Zero. Worse part, I’m not even freaking out about the voices in my head going rouge. I still have a series to finish, a new one to start, and countless other WIPs that have one to three chapters written. Obviously my brain needs this little break from reality and I can only hope once I get my mojo back it will all have been worth it in the end. I really want to be writing but I also don’t want to force out nonsense just to say I am writing. IF that makes sense. This summer has been one of the hardest so far and I can only hope I can hold on to my sanity for the next 5 1/2 weeks until we transition into the fall and school starts back up. Hopefully you writers out there are having better luck than me as I know a lot of you are also participating in NaNo this month as well. Anyways, here’s to August! May you breeze by and September be upon us before you know it!

Is It Fall Yet?

Yes I know we had a crappy winter last year but please for the love of all that’s holy I’m ready for this summer to be done! Finished…put out of it’s misery! I need the fall back and fast! Although I’ve kept myself busy with my fun Kiss and Tell: Encounters of a Prostitute serial, I’m still ready for school to start back and the leaves to change colors…Change. That’s what I need right now. A freaking change! I’ve managed to screw up my knee even more than it was screwed up before and I’ve not done nearly enough of what I wanted to do this summer. But I didn’t get to see family twice in the span of two weeks and my cousin got married…so yay! Another cousin graduated high school. So those were good things! I ended up with a wicked sinus infection that lasted 3 weeks and I thought I was dying. Now I’m just trying to make it the almost 7 weeks left before the next college school year starts…pep talk every day for $200 Alex! That’s how I feel right now…but I have decided to take control of my publishing hat…I’ve started a two year plan for my books and also hope to get a small 2-3 author publishing company up and off the ground by the start of the new year. I have book ideas coming out of every place imaginable so that’s always a plus but I miss school. I’m excited to start the mental health counseling part of my dual program and I can’t wait to get back to the psychology field…I have been writing though!

So tell me…how is your summer going? Loving it? Hate it? Wish it was over? Let me know in the comments and we can be miserable together 🙂 Anyone going to the Boston Comic Con this year?

We Are Human Too

We Are Human Too

 

We Are Human Too

I’ve been a writer practically all my life and I’ve been an author since Dec 2013. Since then I’ve seen a whole other side to the book world. Things that I would have never thought were a factor. So much unnecessary pettiness and jealousy. As an author we are expected to be these flawless creatures when the truth is we are not…we are human too! *Gasp* What do you mean?

I mean we are not perfect! We have bad days, good days, and in between days just like everyone else. We are expected to be these little balls of sunshine and light, when the truth is some of us are awkward, don’t like to socialize, and day dream 95% of our time. We aren’t intentional trying to be rude or come off as being too good for anyone else. What we are is human. And with being human it’s a fact that we will not do or say the right thing all the time. Sometimes we have just had enough and we snap. No warning…and it’s not because of one thing. It’s many things bottled up together and you just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time when the dam broke. You end up drowning in the backlash because you happened to be the poor unfortunate soul that was the last one to cross the line and we’d had enough.

But once this happens we end up being the bad guy. The drama queen. The one who doesn’t play well with others. But what everyone seems to forget is that we are human too. Everyone’s had a bad day on the job and lost their cool. Authors are no different but yet we are held on this pedestal and the one time we fall from it, the world suddenly seems to stop spinning and everyone losses their collective minds and the “she’s a bitch”, “I can’t believe she said that”, “I’ll never buy her books again” talk goes from 0 to 60 within the blink of an eye.

Someone says something negatively about us and we’re expected to sit there and take it. Someone steals something from us, we aren’t supposed to react in a way that is thought to be distasteful. And the list goes on and on and on. Now I understand everyone has opinions and they are entitled to them but with that being said, it seems everyone is entitled to their voice except authors because people buy our books. They want to be treated like customers but when you treat them like customers they still aren’t happy. They want the customer service and common courtesy aspect of purchasing our books but yet they want us to be approachable. However when we allow ourselves to become comfortable in their presence and share our lives with them, the first time we do something they deem inappropriate according to their standards they become enraged and shun not only us but our work. They say we should be more professional and our attitudes suck but what they fail to realize is we’ve taken them into our circle and have shown them the person behind the mask. However since that person isn’t who they wanted or thought they were all hell breaks loose. Then we are told to sit back and let someone drag us through the mud all because they paid the $2.99-$4.99 four our digital books. So we can no longer be human because a price has been added to our name?

You can’t have say you want us to interact and engage with you more but when we do so in a way you don’t want, immediately try to ruin us because we haven’t conformed to the standard you believe we should. We are human too and that means we are complex and most of us our set in our ways. I’ve never agreed with the concept that I had to like a person to enjoy their talent. My motto has always been “unless you directly burn me, do you boo boo.” Who am I to demand a person act/be/portray themselves in a certain way because I purchased a book from them? No one that’s who. If I don’t like something someone says I move on. I don’t need to bash everything about them because they don’t believe the way I believe or do things the way I would do them. Sometimes I think social media has ruin a good thing. It’s ruined the mystery and intrigue and it’s put people into tiny glass houses that can be crushed at the slightest perceived wrong.

A lot of people will probably be offended by my words and I may even lose a few readers, co-workers, etc but I don’t care. I’m tired of standing in the background and watching people say they are letting someone else chase them from their dreams. I’m tired of watching videos of fellow authors in tears because of something someone’s said or lied about them and now they are devastated. I’m tired of people believing they have the right to say whatever they want to an author because they purchased their book/s. If that is the case then please don’t purchase mine. I am not for sell. My behavior is not for sale. My obedience is not for sale. The last time a person believed because they spend money on someone they had the right to tell them what to do, how to act, and what to believe, I’m pretty sure it was called SLAVERY and I will not be a slave to anyone. The day I even feel like I am a slave to what is my passion I will pull everything that is me from the internet as best I can and take my life back.

Spending money on a product doesn’t make you the owner of the person who developed it. Purchasing music or a movie doesn’t give me the right to tell the artist or actors how they should be living their life. They did a job and they were paid. How they behave outside of that is frankly none of my damn business.

The next time you decided to speak about something that an author does and you don’t like/think they should have done please…if you remember nothing else…remember this one thing: WE ARE HUMAN TOO!!!

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The Word Bird

It’s been a long fall semester but I managed to escape unscathed. Now it’s time to get back to the writing part of my life. I have so many book projects I want to work on but have no idea where to start…here is a quick list of what I have planned for 2015…this is subject to change though…

Seer Destined

We All Fall Down

Looking for Love

Phoenix Awakening Prequel

Phoenix Awakening

 

I will also be releasing the first 3 Dark Indiscretions books in a box set and it will have special content and an extended exclusive look at Seer Destined as you patiently wait for it to be released which hopefully will be before my March signings 🙂

Here is the cover I’ve come up with for it…

Dark Indiscretions Box Set

 

Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Dark-Indiscretions-Box-Shakuita-Johnson-ebook/dp/B00RG43VV8/ref=asap_B00H5FFA4O?ie=UTF8

BN: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/dark-indiscretions-box-set-shakuita-johnson/1120976844?ean=2940151693493&itm=1&usri=2940151693493

Kobo: http://store.kobobooks.com/en-US/ebook/dark-indiscretions-box-set

iBooks: https://itunes.apple.com/us/book/id954199697

Where Did The Time Go

Well as I sit here and enjoy the last day of being in my 20s I look back on my life and think to myself, what have I done in the last almost 30 years of my life?

So many things…

I gave 8 years of my life to the USAF

I published a few stories

I’ve been overseas a few times

I got to go to the Louvre

Meet a lot of cool people

Went to a few book signings (some as fans and some as an author myself)

I lost my mom

I got two degrees (an AA in Logistics and a BA in Psychology)

Starting working on my Master’s

And so many more things I could probably say. My life has been good and bad, happy and sad, and I don’t think I would change a bit about it. Everything I’ve seen and done has made me into the person that I am today. Who knows what may have happened if some of the choices I made may have been different. All I can do is hope for another 30 or so years after this. Everyday is precious and all I can do is take things one day at a time and keep trying to do better tomorrow than I do today…

 

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Where Did The Time Go

Well as I sit here and enjoy the last day of being in my 20s I look back on my life and think to myself, what have I done in the last almost 30 years of my life?

So many things…

I gave 8 years of my life to the USAF

I published a few stories

I’ve been overseas a few times

I got to go to the Louvre

Meet a lot of cool people

Went to a few book signings (some as fans and some as an author myself)

I lost my mom

I got two degrees (an AA in Logistics and a BA in Psychology)

Starting working on my Master’s

And so many more things I could probably say. My life has been good and bad, happy and sad, and I don’t think I would change a bit about it. Everything I’ve seen and done has made me into the person that I am today. Who knows what may have happened if some of the choices I made may have been different. All I can do is hope for another 30 or so years after this. Everyday is precious and all I can do is take things one day at a time and keep trying to do better tomorrow than I do today…

 

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NaNo Starts Tomorrow

Whelp NaNoMoWri starts tomorrow and I think this pantser is about ready to start…I have a little bit of the first chapter of the project I’m starting done and I have a Scrivener document with a bunch of notes and what not rearing and ready to go…this is my first one and I’m excited and nervous at the same time. Add in the fact that I’ve not written anything in about a month so we will see how this goes…my novel is called Phoenix Awakening and my nano name is b3arcat26 if anyone wants to add me as a writing buddy…

 

So who else is writing a novel in November? Any ideas or suggestions?

And lastly Happy Halloween people! It’s my favorite time of year 🙂

Writer Funk

Since my first book was published I threw myself into this whole ‘author’ thing full force. I was a writing machine. The plot bunnies were hopping around like crazy and everything was all good. Then the weight of everything came crashing down and the outlet I used to love turned into so much work and stress. It became a whirlwind of marketing, promotions, teasers, release parties, and blog tours to name a few things. I lost what was important in my writing which is: LOVE. I loved writing and now it’s like pulling teeth to write the stories that used to flow so freely in my mind. I can’t connect the dots anymore. It’s a sad day and I’ve decided to take a break from my current momentum of writing. I’ve gotten an idea for a Dark Romance Suspense/Thriller that I’m excited about and I’m running with it for fun. I’m taking my time and don’t expect it to be done until next winter. I have to get my mojo back and the only way I can do that is to distance myself from a lot of things I was doing. No more blog tours, major promo, or parties. I have my pages that I will post info on about my books, my blog, and my website so if you want updates on any of my info make sure you are following my blog, website, and Facebook pages 🙂

Website: http://www.authorshakuitajohnson.com

Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/shakuitajohnson and http://www.facebook.com/LookingForLoveARedMoonKillerNovel

Until the next post….

A Few Updates

First of all I’m hard at work on many things and I just wanted to take a moment and post an update of what I’ve been doing an what’s to come…

First, I’ll be at Boston Comic Con Aug, 8-10…I’m so freaking excited. You can see more about the event at http://www.bostoncomiccon.com

Second, I have an author and a trivia app for Android it’s FREE so feel free to grab it to stay in the loop… https://play.google.com/store/search?q=shakuita+johnson&hl=en

Third, my next book is scheduled to release Aug. 15th…I’m nervous, excited, and freaking out! I also will be having a party for it Aug. 23-24 so if you would like to attend here is the link… https://www.facebook.com/events/278233899035002/

Fourth, I have a new website up and running. For the most part it’s done but there are some pages I’m working on making better… http://www.authorshakuitajohnson.com

Fifth, I will be attending the New England Writers Signing Oct. 4, 2014 at the DCU center in Worcester, MA… for more info on tickets and what not look here…. https://www.facebook.com/Newenglandwriterssigning

Sixth, I’m working on a spin off series for Dark Indiscretions that will be called The Dark Indiscretions Chronicles and I hope to have the first book out in Oct 2014…

Seventh, my Double Blog Tour/Cover Reveal tour is going on now and I plan to do a post with the links once it’s done so every can see what’s going on but for now you can enter the giveaway here…  http://www.rafflecopter.com/rafl/display/50333b101/

Lastly, the sign ups for A Prequel blog tour are open right now… https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1Fgt4ypE1ab9D4S_J3arXN5421pxq0-dm3MAEBht9370/viewform?usp=send_form

That’s all I have for now….I’m sure once I hit publish I will think of a thousand other things but until next time 🙂

Why Short Stories Are The Devil

So I started a short story for an anthology that I will be a part of coming out in December. I went in all extra excited BUT as stories tend to do, it took on a life of it’s own. Seriously!! There was a 10K word limit and I have to FIGHT to keep it close…It ended up being about 10700 when all was said and done and that’s before edits…

 

Now I’m sure you’re saying to yourself “who the hell cares” and you would 9 times out of 10 be right but I’m venting of a second. Short stories are the damn DEVIL….especially when you find yourself with an idea that decides to get bigger and bigger and now you are leaving out so much detail that you end up hating yourself and resenting your story. By the time I was done with it I didn’t even want to look at it…in fact I just sent it to my editor without even reading through it first which is sooo not like me. I at least try to read through it once to catch little things and maybe add or delete here and there but with this story I was so disgusted with myself and that I couldn’t take it where I wanted it to go that I was like I’M DONE!!!

 

Now there is a plus to this sad rant that I’m having…I know I will be expanding the short into a FULL LENGTH to release shortly (2-4 months) after the anthology because I want to give my readers the best of my work. Plus I really liked the idea and I really want to spend more time with the characters then I was able to. I think it may even be a big enough word to be two or three books. That’s how far out of left field this story idea came. Until I do that I won’t be 100% happy with the product I’m putting out BUT I know longer want to print it out just so I can ripe it up either 🙂