As I work on the rewrite of my first book ever published, in the mist of all that has been thrown my way this summer I’ve lost my motivation. The drive or spark is gone. Not sure if it will even come back. I can’t focus enough to see if the voices are gone, as personal issues have either drowned them out or they’ve gone silent. Either way it sucks. Hell it’s all I can do to muster up the brain and willpower to write this blog post. I’ve taken breaks, I tried to read for clarity, and I’ve even watched a movie or five. Still nada. Zip. Zero. Worse part, I’m not even freaking out about the voices in my head going rouge. I still have a series to finish, a new one to start, and countless other WIPs that have one to three chapters written. Obviously my brain needs this little break from reality and I can only hope once I get my mojo back it will all have been worth it in the end. I really want to be writing but I also don’t want to force out nonsense just to say I am writing. IF that makes sense. This summer has been one of the hardest so far and I can only hope I can hold on to my sanity for the next 5 1/2 weeks until we transition into the fall and school starts back up. Hopefully you writers out there are having better luck than me as I know a lot of you are also participating in NaNo this month as well. Anyways, here’s to August! May you breeze by and September be upon us before you know it!
Yes I know we had a crappy winter last year but please for the love of all that’s holy I’m ready for this summer to be done! Finished…put out of it’s misery! I need the fall back and fast! Although I’ve kept myself busy with my fun Kiss and Tell: Encounters of a Prostitute serial, I’m still ready for school to start back and the leaves to change colors…Change. That’s what I need right now. A freaking change! I’ve managed to screw up my knee even more than it was screwed up before and I’ve not done nearly enough of what I wanted to do this summer. But I didn’t get to see family twice in the span of two weeks and my cousin got married…so yay! Another cousin graduated high school. So those were good things! I ended up with a wicked sinus infection that lasted 3 weeks and I thought I was dying. Now I’m just trying to make it the almost 7 weeks left before the next college school year starts…pep talk every day for $200 Alex! That’s how I feel right now…but I have decided to take control of my publishing hat…I’ve started a two year plan for my books and also hope to get a small 2-3 author publishing company up and off the ground by the start of the new year. I have book ideas coming out of every place imaginable so that’s always a plus but I miss school. I’m excited to start the mental health counseling part of my dual program and I can’t wait to get back to the psychology field…I have been writing though!
So tell me…how is your summer going? Loving it? Hate it? Wish it was over? Let me know in the comments and we can be miserable together 🙂 Anyone going to the Boston Comic Con this year?