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Was Writing All Day Yesterday

Book Flats I had made! Love these things :)
Book Flats I had made! Love these things 🙂

 

A few days ago I made it to the 10K mark on my second novel in my Dark Indiscretions Series. So for the weekend I decided I was going to hit 20K. Well I’m definitely going to hit my mark. I pushed out 2K Friday night while simultaneously hanging out with friends and yesterday managed around 6K. Crazy right?! So today as I sit at a little over 18K I’m ecstatic that I will be blowing that 20K goal out of the water. I have an overall goal of 50K and with the way the story has been following lately I can be done in the next month with a first draft. The second time around the words are coming much faster and the story developing nicely. I have the cover done this time way before so I can do one of those fancy Cover Reveals when I’m close to publishing. This one will also be self published. I thought taking 3 classes would slow down my writing but I’m finding a nice balance. I still find time to read for pleasure, review, and help other indie authors promote their work with cover reveals, and anything else on my blog. This year as started over amazingly and I have nowhere to go but up from here! I’m also doing my first Author Takeover at Book Cracker Caroline on Facebook Jan. 16, 8-10 pm EST. If you have a moment be sure to check it out. Giving away some prizes, tidbits, and such. Should be loads of fun! My second one will be Feb. 2, the day before my Book Blast and it will take place on the page Panty Dropping Book Blog. I’m nervous and bouncy.

So how’s your new year so far? Everything you hoped and more?

Requesting a Bit of Feedback…

A little something that I have been working on but not sure if I want to run with it or if it makes any sense. Any suggestions or thoughts welcomed

Rumspringa *unedited*

Chapter 1

Sy awoke suddenly on her sixteenth birthday and instantly felt a change. It was finally happening. It was finally here. Rumspringa… The much anticipated ‘rite of passage’ ceremony. Her and everyone born today would either come into power or be exiled to fend for themselves with no guidance. The boys would go through one away from the girls. They will be tested in four categories of magic. Earth, water, air, and fire. Successful completion of these trails not only decide your place in the community but your husband. The guy you spend your life with who’s magic is in sync with yours and makes you an unstoppable force.

She had been awaiting this day ever since her older sister went through her Rumspringa last year. Sinsa was so happy and powerful. There mother liked to say she was the most powerful Venefica she’s ever known. The Venefica – Sorceress are some of the most powerful witches in existence. Nothing like a Mystic – vampyra shape-shifting witch, those things are vicious, but the Venefica are actual witches. They could control any element but specialize in one more than the others. Sy’s sister’s deadliest power was with air. She could make anything happen with the element, from gentle spring breezes to the most devastating tornadoes. It was both awesome and terrifying.

She wanted to be in the same league as her sister. Matter of fact she wanted to surpass it. She sprang from bed and ran outside to fill up enough pails to bring in water for a cleansing bath to clear her mind and help her focus for her upcoming trails. She didn’t want to chance anything today. Nothing could be undone and there were no do overs. You got one chance for each trail. So you had better rock it the first time or be prepared for life outside the community. The Amish like upbringing of each family did nothing to prepare anyone for life after Rumspringa failure.

The city was all hustle and bustle, while their little village life was calm and quiet. They went without modern convinces and grew there own food. If we can’t grow it or make it then we don’t need it, was the village motto. It served them well for centuries. Sy was determined not to ever be casted out her home. She had heard the horror stories whispered in the night. More than half of the Venefica who were forced out didn’t last the month before they were killed or killed themselves. Evil things stalked the nights. Monsters that even the biggest badasses were afraid of.

After several trips, Sy finally sat in her bath to enjoy the hot water on her skin. Mixed with a few oils and herbs, she immediately felt more at ease. More in control. She had pretty tight control over ever element right now but the trails were meant to push you to the limit – try to see if you could break. This was the time that one element broke ranks over the other three. Occupying the head of the pack status. Venefica would always be able to call any element to do their bidding but the Adducere – lead – would be their greatest weapon. If all else failed to keep a person safe the Adducere would finish the job. Leaving no room for doubt that the job was done.

Sy wanted her Adducere to be fire. She had always held a special bond with the element from the time of her birth. She came out her mother’s womb bathed in it. A large circle was burned into the ground around her mother as she was brought into this world. Everyone just knew it would be Sy’s Adducere. She loved playing with the element. Forever testing and bending it to her will. For her Adducere to be anything else would devastate her. No other element called to her like that of fire. Kind in it’s ability to warm the coldest heart and deadly when aggravated and fueled with malice.

It would also stand to make sense for her husband’s Adducere to be air. Helping to fuel her flames and spread them quicker to their target. As she lay in the cleansing bath she dreamed of what her life would be after the trails. How much better and carefree. No longer expecting the worse. Once the Rumspringa was passed successfully no one could cast you out. You were safe from the unknown. You were considered an adult and no longer treated as a child.

As the water begun to grow colder Sy figured it was time to put on her ceremonial white habitus – dress – and made her way downstairs. Her mother and older sister were already waiting for her in the kitchen in their black habitus that signaled they had already completed their Rumspringa. She would be in hers in a matter of four days. Their was only one element tested a day to give the wielder time to recharge before the next. The tests took some much from the participant that the Elders didn’t want anyone claiming fatigue hindered their Rumspringa. Rest ensured authenticity of the trail.

“Finally! I was beginning to think I would have to come and drag you from bed,” Sinsa said. “On the day of my Rumspringa I was up already hours before you are now.”

“I have been awake. I took a cleansing bath to soothe my nerves,” Sy replied.

“All right you two. Enough. Sy has a big day today Sinsa, don’t distract her. The next four days will determine her entire future,” their mother said.

“Yes mother,” they replied.

“Come eat this porridge. You will need your strength. Forgoing food will hinder you,” her mother said.

Sy went to the table and ate the food her mother had prepared for her. She could feel her sister step behind her to secure her hair in a bun after combing through it. She said a silent prayer asking for a steady hand and patience. She would need them both. She concentrated on breathing in and out as to not hyperventilate from the stress that was now starting to creep in the closer the time came for the Rumspringa to start. Their were two other girls and three boys undergoing the same torrid of emotions as her at this exact moment.

She couldn’t help but be weary. No one had been cased out in the last fifteen Rumspringas and she hoped that trend continued. She did not want her Rumspringa being the first. Surely it could only mean something bad if any of her birthday mates were cast into the cold and unforgiving world alone at sixteen with no one to turn to. Even their families would turn their backs to them, offering no aid. You had only the clothes on your back and five hundred dollars from the community. You either made it into more or you ran out and did whatever else you could for more.

“Come Sy, we must leave now to get to the Circle a bit early. We don’t want to chance lateness,” her mother said.

“I’m ready mother,” Sy said.

“Of course you are. You will do fine,” Sinsa reassured her.

My Mind Is All Over The Place

Well I’m still on the high of publishing my first novel and I intend to ride it out for as long as it lasts. That being said now that I have finished the first book, I’m getting ideas for all kinds of things. I’m not complaining. It’s a good thing, but I just had a plan to finish the Dark Indiscretions Series first but other ideas pop up and I’m writing notes so I don’t forget and before I know it I’ve gotten a few paragraphs in. I said all that to say this: how do other authors do it? How do you maintain any shred of sanity with all these book ideas vying for space in your head? I try to sleep at night…idea pops up. I’m at work…scene plays out in my head. Half the time I don’t know what’s what. I have notes all over the iPhone and laptop. I guess it’s a good thing that I’m not planning to be a one book author (well at least my subconscious isn’t) but with classes starting again I’m starting to doubt where I’ll have the time to write anything besides research papers. Ha who am I kidding I do those the night before 🙂

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New Year, New Possibilities

photo 1This year has been a pretty long one. I like to think that each year brings new challenges and possibilities. This one will be no different. This year I’ve published my first book Dark Indiscretions, I’ve buckled down on school work and the end is in sight seeing as I only have 6 to complete my BA in Psychology starting in Jan. I made the decision to get PRK eye surgery and everyday I’m loving the results and the ease of waking up and not having to find my glasses or worried about if they are scratched or not. I’ve ended some friendships. Some much needed, while others came at a surprise. You live you learn. I’ve reached my last year of my 20s. Not a big deal because I don’t look a day over high school sometimes anyway so 30’s not a big deal. I’ve taught myself many things that I didn’t think possible or wouldn’t have in the past. I’m happier and more carefree. I hope to continue the trend in 2014.

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Speaking of 2014 I’ve got some serious things going on. My Book Blast begins in February. Reviews will pour in around March. My first visit to Boston before I move to look at purchasing my first condo. Hoping to have my second novel published in my current series and hopefully a new one started. I want to write more poetry and possible publish that as well. I will take my writing to a much higher level by challenging myself to do the impossible. I want to read more than I read this year and embrace this era of social media that has befallen our generation. I will be a college graduate and a new grad student. My commitment to the AF will be over and a new chapter will begin in Boston. A new city with a fresh start and unlimited possibilities. I plan to work/volunteer with trouble children. Help those who can’t help themselves. I will stay away from unhealthy relationships, be that friendships or romantic. I will put myself first before all others because you can’t help anyone if you don’t take care of yourself first. I hope to get in touch with more indie authors like myself. I hope to grow my little Facebook Series Page into a big deal. I plan to push myself to my limit in 2014 and even then keep doing impossible things and making them possible.

Endless possibilities with the only limits being the ones I set for myself. No longer allowing others to decide what my future will or won’t be.

What about you? What possibilities are you hoping for in 2014? Nothing is unreachable. The only person on this Earth that can stop you from reaching your goals is yourself.

Looking Through The Fog

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This is my life right now. I feel like a vampire but without all the cool perks.  Holed up in my room with no lights and sunglasses on. Everything is blurry. Even writing this post I can barely see the letters I’m typing on the page. Only my great typing skills are making this post possible right now. It’s kind of annoying because I was given seven days off from my day job and I haven’t managed to get anything done like homework or second novel because I can’t really see. I thought I was going to be super productive but all I do is drop drops in my eyes, take Motrin and Benadryl and fall asleep. Wash and repeat for the last two days. I can’t drive either. Want to go somewhere or do something I need to be chauffeured around like British royalty. You’re probably saying all that complaining was it worth it? Hell yes! It was worth it for that 5 seconds of clarity I had with no glasses on right after the surgery. As soon as the healing process is over I will have the clarity back and hundreds of dollars saved from not having to buy glasses or contacts for a while. Will I need glasses again? Yes, as I get older I will probably need reading glasses but that’s just life but I will be able to see far away no problem. Which before PRK was a big problem. All in all I’m glad I did it even though I was terrified I’d be the 1% to come out blind. It really wasn’t that bad. You never felt anything because your eyes are numb but once the numbing worn off you’re eyes are pretty irritated and you can’t even touch them. Just apply eye drops like it’s the second coming to sooth the dry, itchy eye problems. The bonus Is I get to look super cool walking around in shades like the awesome person I am even at work for the next year! Score!

If you are thinking about having refractive surgery go for it! Totally worth it in my opinion.

I’m blind…

Well not really but my pupils are super dilated. Why would they be dilated? Well I’m getting eye surgery on Wednesday and I’m equal parts excited and terrified. I really don’t want to be the 1% that gets the short end of the stick under the PRK laser. I look like a drug addict laying around with sunglasses on.

full dilation mode
full dilation mode

Hopefully my eyes bounce back pretty quickly after initial surgery. I have a million and one things to do and I really need to be able to see to do them. I was told I look like I should be in the Matrix videos.

 

If I reach 100 likes while I’m having/recovering from eye surgery I will post the giveaway once I can see again.

13 to go…then a giveaway!

So I have 87 blog followers. I’ve had this blog for a bit over a year and this is exciting to me. I’m not on it as much as I would like. Life gets in the way but 87 people reading my words is amazing. So I thought why not have a giveaway when I reach 100! It’s gonna be sweet. It will be my first giveaway. Nothing too fancy. Just a little token of my appreciation.  Will post contest as soon as that 100 followers pops up so tell your friends to follow so we can get the party started!!

 

Pink sang it best!

Time For Some Non-Fiction Perhaps

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Letters to Kyle

So I had a new book idea. It will be non fiction. My first one. I got the idea after I had starting writing letters to a guy I was talking to after he left the area. In them are all the things I wanted to say but didn’t have the words to say face to face so I started writing him letters. Letters he will never see. Letters that show him all of me and not just the outside. These letters express my deepest desires and fears. It’s kind of like a diary but instead of talking to myself I’m talking to him. I’m debating if it’s something I would want to share with the world. It’s a true account inside my head and the things I’m constantly daydreaming about because my mind is always playing out some future scenario. I can’t seem to shut it off. I guess that’s one of the side effects of having a creative mind. Maybe idk I just made that up. Anyway it’s only ten letters so far and I’m not sure how many I will write since we barely talk anymore anyway and I really need to work on moving on anyway. I mean is it creepy to write letters to a guy you’re no longer close to anyway? I guess these things can’t be rushed. Feelings and emotions have a mind all their own. No one knows the moment when words no longer have a hold on your heart. I like the concept of an in depth look into how my mind works regardless. I may be the future Psychologist in me. I’m always thinking. I constantly live my life in the fiction, what if, scenarios. It’s high time I plant my feet firmly on the ground and join the living. I can fantasize all day but perhaps taking a leap into the non-fiction side of writing could be fun. I already do it with poetry anyway since that’s as real as my writing can get. My poetry is an extension of me anyway. I’ll leave you with my favorite Starbucks drink.

 

Passion Fruit Tea Lemonade
Passion Fruit Tea Lemonade