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Author Interview – Shakuita Johnson

Did a little interview and thought I’d also post it here! If you want to know anything else about me or my writing check out my Facebook or Author Website!

 

What’s your favourite part of the lifestyle of an Author?

 

Writing the words…taking the movie reel that’s playing in my head and putting it down on paper as best I can to capture every moment and detail.

 

What made you start writing?

 

I started writing in middle school. I started with poems…they were my escape and a way to express myself.

 

Is there an Author that you consider your inspiration?

 

I have many but the early authors would be Anne Rice, Christopher Pike, VC Andrews, and RL Stine…they are who I read the most growing up.

 

What’s your number one tip for an aspiring Author?

 

Do you research and don’t settle for less than what you want. At the end of the day it’s your name that’s going on your published work. If you’re not happy with something speak up and change it. Also having a great team behind you to help motivate and inspire you is a plus.

 

What type of book do you like to read and does this differ from the genre that you prefer to write?

 

I’m a paranormal/fantasy/sci-fi junky. No this doesn’t differ from my preferred genre to write. The supernatural is where my heart lies.

 

Which one of your characters would you most like to spend time with?

 

James… he’s insane, intelligent, and charming. He’s a highly functioning sociopath and I just love his character so much. He loves as hard as he hates.

 

Which book do you consider a must-read?

 

Anne Rice’s Queen of the Damned…every time I read it I find something new…something I didn’t see before. Plus it’s just beautifully written…from the history of the twins to the origin of the first vampire. It’s my go to book.

 

If you could live in a book, which one would it be?

 

Ahhh, that’s a hard one…it would either be Sherrilyn Kenyon’s Dark Hunter or The League series or Kresley Cole’s Immortals After Dark Series.

 

Can you sum up your life story in ten words or less?

 

Even when there was nothing left to give…she did.

 

What’s exciting you about your next project?

 

My next project is a YA fantasy… just the story itself is exciting. Plenty of action and holy crap moments. I was excited from the outline and I hope everyone is excited about the finished product.

 

And finally, you have one quote to be remembered by, what is it?

 

“Most people do not listen with the intent to understand; they listen with the intent to reply.”

― Stephen R. Covey

Late Night Musings #2

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I was never taught to love myself. All the different parts of me that make me unique. I was never taught to be unapologetically flawed. Many days I’m not sure how I’ve made it this far… the self-hate was debilitating. Everyday I painted a smile on my face and got up to face another day. When all the while I was dying inside. Death was eating away at every part of me. I lived in fear constantly. Sleeping with knives under my pillow. Thinking tonight would be the night it all ended. Startled out of my sleep by the sound of shouting. I remember feeling as if my heart would beat out of my chest. I remember thinking someone may die tonight. I remember thinking why is it always me? Why am I the one putting myself in danger to make sure nothing permanent happens?

Why doesn’t anyone see the lies behind my smile? The violence just under the surface? Locking myself in my room didn’t help to quite the voices. Locking myself in my room didn’t make what was going on go away. When most people think of abuse they think of the physical but no one recognizes that sometimes the emotional abuse is a pill much harder to swallow. For years I hated my existence. I didn’t understand why my family life wasn’t perfect. I didn’t understand why it seemed like the walls were closing in on me. I grew up before I should have. Surprised a lot of the pain. The shame. The misery. The hate I have is still strong… it’s still pure. What happens when you don’t feel safe at home… the one place you should above all others? What happens when grown men try to force themselves on you and you feel you have nowhere but to turn? I was never taught to love myself so I went searching for it in all the wrong places. It’s hard to dispel the cycle. It’s hard to remove yourself from the continuous loop. It’s hard to break the silence. I should have left.

I stared death in the face a time or two and I’m surprised I’m still here. I was threatened in high school. Told I would be tossed out a two-story window… in the place I was supposed to feel safe. Loved. Protected. Instead I felt fear. Hopelessness. Rage. Why would you let your child endure such hardships? Why would you stay? Most importantly why the hell did I?

Look Before You Leap…

Blog Post – Look Before You Leap

When it comes to matters of the heart there are an abundant of quotes…

I hold it true, whate’er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
‘Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.

-From Alfred Lord Tennyson’s poem In Memoriam:27, 1850

‘Tis absence, however, that makes the heart grow fonder.

-The contemporary version appears in The Pocket Magazine of Classic and Polite Literature, 1832, in a piece by a Miss Stickland

“If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were.”

-Khalil Gibran

These are just a few used when dealing with the heart and love. I say all that to say this…

Love can make people do unusual and unexpected things. It can make you reject all that you’ve ever known and change the person you’ve always been. It can be an unhealthy obsession or the best thing that ever happens in your life. I believe everyone has a soul-mate. I believe the mythology of the Greeks about soul-mates to be the closest explanation of how I also feel about the word.

It is said that humans originally consisted of four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

-Plato on soul mates

Again I said all that to say this…I believe in Soul-Mates…I believe in giving my all in a relationship and not holding back because until I prove otherwise the person that I’m vibing with could be the missing half of my soul. Here is my problem, I believe in love so much that I put my whole heart into my relationships. Even when those relationships don’t work out, when the next one comes along I’m just as open, caring, and giving. I don’t look before I leap. Why do I do this? I could tell you a number of reasons like blaming horoscopes (I’m a Scorpio), loneliness, or a number of other reasons. What I do know is that I give 110% in my relationships and I’ve tried everything imaginable to make sure they work. I hear stories of couples being together from their first date even after sleeping together, high school sweethearts, blind dates, you name it I’ve probably heard the love story. Am I bitter? Maybe, no one wants to be alone and if they say they do I think they aren’t being honest with themselves. Now am I saying settle for the first thing that comes along and shows you attention? No. You have standards, don’t lower them. There is someone (soulmate) who will not only meet them but surpass them.

I was married for 3 months because I leaped before I looked. Even when I knew in my heart that it wasn’t meant to be, I let what I believed should be happening to cloud my good judgment. My common sense. I listen to sappy love songs and I find myself waking up in the middle of the night with tears stained on my pillow. I give myself pep talks about finding love when I least expect it and I hate it. I absolutely hate it. When I do meet someone and I think we click, everything is going well, and then BAM! things change. I start to feel like I’m not good enough. The texts go from every morning, night, and hour in between, to I feel like I’m a stalker vying for the attention that I should have. It’s like a complete 180 and it in turn only makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong. I start to question not only myself but my sanity. What am I doing wrong? Like I said I hear all the love at first site and we had sex on the first date and now we’ve been together 5, 10, 15, 20+ years and the only thing I can think in response is, Mm…anytime I’ve had sex on the first day I didn’t get a phone call the next day. Doesn’t matter if we had been texting weeks prior to said first date. Again I ask, what am I doing wrong?

Recently I’ve met a super cool guy. We talked for weekends through the phone before we even had our first day. Then we had a second dinner date, and spend the 4th together for our third and now I’m beginning to let past heartbreak confuse and bewilder me. If I don’t get a text back right away I’m nervous. I start to second guess myself…am I texting too much, is this the same amount of texts I was sending before, is he bored of me already? Yes I’m a head case and neurotic. I can’t help it…I have anxiety and it seems to skyrocket when beginning a new relationship (is it even a relationship, does 3 dates a relationship make). So are there really soul-mates and if so where the hell is mine?